Two years post chemo…

Two years post chemo… I’m here and strong and moving forward. I wanted to share a poem that I wrote during my cancer treatments. I am still full of lots of emotions and it still feels like yesterday. The emotions are raw and sit on my chest, I hope one day all the pain and sadness of what I went through fades away. In time I’m sure it will. I’m grateful to be here. Each day is a gift. 

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Herceptin Countdown

Beep beep beep

Beep beep

Chemo in session

Then on pause

Woman having a reaction calling for help

My body trembles

My heart races

I watch as the nurses run to help her

I feel like crying

Emotional state

I pray for her in silence

Cold cloth and medicine

Chairs full of people

Blood transfusions

“Can you state your name and birthdate?”

My chest

Anxious

Flowing emotions

I want to cry

Things will be okay

Warm blankets on the legs

Nurse says hello

They are supportive

Full of kindness

Needles in the arm

Take blood

See the doctor

Prescription set

Five years

Suppress hormone

Estrogen

Need third vaccine booster

Machines working

Buzzing

For the first time I see a young girl in the chairs

My forms on the side of me

One day they will be history

Filed in the depth of a cabinet

Hopefully dust free

As I hide my tears in my mask the humming of the machine Hummmm

Hummmm

The clock ticking

Silence. 

I’ve written a few poems you can access online as an Ebook if you like.

Truth

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Faith Hope Love

It’s been a long, emotional and challenging year of treatments. After completing surgery, radiation, chemotherapy and 18 rounds of Herceptin, I am finally finished. I only have five years of hormone therapy to do and the side effects are very stressful and annoying but I’m going to try and figure out ways to minimize them. 

It has been so hard. So difficult. Very emotional and a challenging year. I feel I don’t even know how to function without thinking about infusions and results and appointments. I only have follow up appointments and yearly check-ups. Sometimes I stop and think what just happened? 

I am so grateful that I’m here and I’m trying to appreciate each moment without drowning in the emotions that I dwelled in the past year. It’s hard to move forward, but with faith in God and focus on love and family my heart ♥️ is full and hope is here.

 Hope and positivity for the future. One day at a time. 

Thank you all for being here for me and being a part of my journey. 

Thank you from my heart,

Love ❤️ always Maria 

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